“Bettie, this is George...”
That’s how my Dad in Kansas City
must have began the phone conversation
with my Mom in St. Louis in 1962.
Shocked that her divorced husband of
17-years would have the audacity to call
and open up sore wounds again, my Mom
likely worried about my well being
took a deep breath and responded,
“Is Chris all right?”
I’m certain she she didn’t expect Dad
to call her apologizing for being late
again with child support owed her for
my two brothers left at home with her.
No, that S.O.B. wouldn’t have a shred
of decency to do that.
“Well physically, Chris is okay, but
emotionally, that’s what bothers me.
He’s doing poorly in school. He
has no friends, and unless I’m at
home, he spends most of his time alone.
I’d like to bring him back to St. Louis
to live with you and his brothers. I think
he’d be better off with you all back
there. I’m at a loss as to what else to do.”
Knowing my mom, I’m sure her
first response would have been, “Well,
what in hell about my back child support?
You’d better be paying me that? I can’t
be taking care of three growing boys
on my own. At least you owe that to me.”
I know Dad had to commit to that in
order to get me and his problem off his back.
“I’ll take care of it...” Dad would have
promised. “Next Saturday then?”
“All right, but you’d better pay up!”
And so the deal was done. And I had no
say in the matter. So, there I was,
15-years old with nowhere to go, nowhere
to belong.
Looking back on it after some
60-years have passed, I hated that Dad
had taken me back to live with my mom
and brothers. Sure I was depressed,
but I had emotionally formed a bond
with my dad. It was just the two of
us depressed, dealing with the
world together. My mom would
never understand that. To her Dad
was the same S.O.B. she always
knew him to be.
As Dad let me out of the car
in St. Louis that fateful Saturday.
I stood there and tears came to my eyes
as he drove off. What would become
of me now? Life was shit! That
was the first philosophical thought
I remember having. And the ransom
money for me? Dad promised to put
a check in the mail.
Mom and Dad are long gone now,
and as for me? Yes, life went on.
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Chris Hanch 1-27-2021
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