Yesterday,
I had a video conference with my
nurse
at
the VA. I gave her my vitals—blood pressure, pulse
rate
and temperature I had taken hours before. Your
blood
pressure is a bit lower, otherwise everything is
normal
for you and okay.
Normal
for me, what exactly does that mean, I thought
to
myself? With my physical maladies, my clinical
depressive
psychological state, I still appear to be okay.
I
haven’t been out of my apartment in more than two
and
a half years, does that appear to be okay? At seventy
five,
I’ve aged into
my third trimester. And
I suppose
the
fact that I’m still breathing and can communicate
reasonably
indicates that
medically and socially I qualify
as
okay.
Yes,
my appetite is okay. I get to sleep five or six hour
a
night. Right now, seated, my pain level is about a two
on
the scale of one to ten. Prune juice helps with my
frequent
constipation, and I manage to barely make it
to
the bathroom when I’ve got to go. I’m continent,
I’m
okay.
My
goal in life these days is to manage by myself and
to
avoid regular outside assistance or being sent to a
nursing
home. Medically speaking that
qualifies me as
being
okay. Fabulous, grand and great are states of being
I
passed through years ago. Today, I’m satisfied and okay
with
okay.
Now
I face the
prospects of piss poor and
oblivious.
Who
knows with the
onset of
advancing age, those
may
come to overtake
me
in the next few days.
Grateful
for what I’ve still got, I suppose.
Talk
with you again in
three
to six months. Yes, I’ll
call
you if there’s any change, I
told my nurse. Have
a
better
than average
okay
day.
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Chris
Hanch 7-2-2022