David Anthony, a resident like me at a government
subsidized apartment complex in Denver, warned
me to never give up my car. Said, one day I may
need it to escape. I would have to have my wheels
in order to get somewhere.
David knew what it was like, for he himself was
trapped in life as a paraplegic confined to one of
those motorized wheelchairs. You may need to
escape, he repeatedly warned me. And he was right.
One day I did escape that place leaving poor David
behind. I moved on and managed to find a more suit-
able place where I maintained sufficiently for several
years.
As my arthritis progressed, and I became more unable
to get around, I had to eventually give up my car. I
needed to find a new place to live where I was able
to adjust to the limitations brought on by my disability.
As things are for me today, I have not been away from
my apartment and it’s walk-out patio for over a year.
My son comes once a week to do shopping for me. My
daughter makes a visit every two weeks or so to clean
my apartment.
Over time, I have become more restricted from doing
basic physical activities. I can no loner get my mail. The
mail box is halfway across a large parking lot which is
physically unreachable for me. And likewise, taking my
trash out to the communal receptacle has become an
impossibility.
I now know first-hand what David was talking about
several years ago with the ability to leave when need
be. I’ve had to give up so much. No car, unable to even
get up, get out and walk away. These days, my music,
my reading and my writing, Facebook and the Internet
are my only connections with outside realities.
At least I no longer have the need to scrape ice off my
windshield or negotiate snowy and icy roads and walk-
ways. Although, these days if I’m not careful, I can still
fall flat on my ass inside my apartment being frozen
right here in place.
Still I frequently reminisce, missing my ability to either
crash and burn outside, or escaping to some other place
far and away.
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Chris Hanch 11-9-2020
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